FloJ

You would never know

I walked past you today
I couldn’t find enough courage to utter a “hey”
But I saw you today
Wearing your navy blue polo shirt with the white horse to match your white hat
The brown shorts you wore blended in with your skin color
Your muscles showed through your shirt
What I would give to hold onto your arms
Just for a day
Your smile when you talk to your friends warms my heart
Your light brown eyes pierce me everytime I look at them
Although, I don’t think your ever looked at me; I wish you would
Wish you would look at me the way I look at you
To hold your hand and caress your skin
To kiss your lips
But it will only be a dream because you still just walked passed me
Wish I was walking your way
But I have a class to get to
I guess I will see you when you walk pass me another day

Unfaithful (full version)

Til death do us part
That’s what what we said from the start
When our lips first touched
And our eyes they met
I knew it was set
That from that day on you would be my lover
us entangled under the covers
Never wanting another
That’s what we said

But looks are deceiving s
Seeming that you have been cheating
One the one you said you loved
The one you cherished above
Everything

But the everything you dreamed had a different spin
She didn’t have your four children
She wore a size 4
And had skin of light brown color

She didn’t stand beside you when you almost died
When you lost your job and all you could do was cry
She didn’t know what is was like to know how felt
After working 12hour shifts just to see the money
Melt away out of your fingertips
Oh the way your fingertips felt against my skin as you held me while we layer in bed
Naked on each other
Skin to skin
I had nothing to ever hide because you were my friend
There was nothing that could tear us
There was no end

My first and last
My the beginning and then end
You are the rest of my life and yet you would rather spend it with her
Her who can’t balance a check
When I wrote out all of our checks
And paid the bills when you couldn’t get a job
And when I bought the car
And when I gave my all

I promised to live by you
Stand by you
Be with you
You
The simple letters YOU
Because of you my children don’t see their father
Because of you I sleep alone at night
Because of you I can’t breathe
Because of you I will no longer love the same
Because you I’m a a cold, broken, black woman
Again